Blood and Guts Galore

trau·ma  [trou-muh, traw-] -noun: a body wound or shock
produced by sudden physical injury, as from violence or accident.

Ever since my sister Tiffany was in a car accident in 2001 and suffered a traumatic brain injury, I saw all the things that went on in the ICU she was in and my career focus became to work in a Surgical Trauma ICU. After I graduated from nursing school in 2008 I went to work in an ICU of the very type. I absolutely loved it, I enjoyed going to work and craved the adrenaline rush I got at work. A year and a half later I could barely take the tragedy and death I saw on a daily basis when the doctors and nurses including myself were helpless and it began to break me down inside to the point that I couldnt stand going to work anymore. So I decided it was time for a change to a different type of ICU, something a little more I guess you could say low key, to a Cardiac Care Unit. Don't get me wrong working with patients who just about at any moment could lose their heartbeat and code, which is an adrenalie rush in itself. Until you've taken care of a patient with a gunshot wound to their chest and is bleeding out so quickly that you have to crack their chest open and rush them to the operating room to try and save their lives, a code will never be enough of an adrenaline rush. I miss that, I guess you could save I crave it and sometimes it consumes my mind. Taking care of patients at the acuity level that I do is hard work and can be just as intensive as they are in all ICU's. I've come to the realization that a vast majority of patients that come to the ICU are on death's doorstep and need to be cared for just like someone that isnt and in all situations death and tragedy are heartbreaking but I was meant to be a nurse, to help save lives and further God's kingdom while doing so and that not every single patient can be saved but I better give it my all every time I'm at work because you never know when you can make a difference in someone's life. I'm working on switching over to a Trauma ICU at one of the other hosptials around where I work now. If its in God's plan something will work out, if not then I guess there's nothing I can do about it. After reading through this blog it seems sort of dark because I like blood and guts but everyone thrives on something that involves their careers or else they wouldnt have chosen it as a career path. I love being a nurse and couldnt imagine doing anything else for a living. I'm just happy to be doing something that I love and that's caring for others.

On a happy note, the Texas Rangers beat the New York Yankess today 7-2 at The Ballpark in Arlington once again making history for their team. I can't wait to watch the future games. Go Rangers!!!

Have a wonderful night!! xoxo :)